Life has proven to be weird at times so today I have enough reasons to believe that miraculously you’d land here, read this, and be, once again, in my world.
Hey, You, it’s been a long time since we’ve talked, I’ll try to catch you up but I know its pointless. I also know it’s silly and pretty much impossible to wish that you’d read this, but I do. I don’t have a reason to be disappointed in you, never did.
You told me how the world always has some light, even in the darkest of times, how when everything is wrong, there has to be a right. I believed you, believed in good, believed that nothing is absolute.
No absolute pain
No absolute dark
No absolute bad
No absolute loneliness
After all these years of being away, I still hold on to your words, remembering how life once turned out, but we survived. A friend I lost everything for, a friend I thought I’ll always have, a friend I lost to someone, a friend that I’ll always miss.
I’m running low on things to hold on to, you, I’m running out of hope and happiness. You’ll never know it, you’ll not be here, but what if you did? what if, somehow, perhaps magically, you’d be here…
A friend that I could use, a friend that I desperately need, to tell me it’s alright, to show me, in absolute darkness, a hint of a light. Today, I put my faith in nothingness, I put myself out there, falling, hoping you’d catch me, again, like you once did, nine years ago.